Hilchos Teshuva 4: Coming Face to Face With Teshuva

כיצד מצות וידוי אומר אנא השם חטאתי עויתי פשעתי לפניך ועשיתי כך וכך והרי נחמתי ובושתי במעשי ולעולם איני חוזר לדבר הזה.

So basically, Viduy mirrors Teshuvah. The Rav zikhrono livrakha defined it as it's the external ma'aseh hamitzvah of Teshuvah. So the person articulates the inner, internal experience of Teshuvah. Now, that being the case, it's a little curious that when you look in Perek Beis, Halacha Beis,

ומה היא התשובה הוא שיעזוב החוטא חטאו ויסירו ממחשבתו ויגמור בלבו שלא יעשהו עוד שנאמר יעזוב רשע דרכו ואיש און מחשבותיו וכן יתנחם על שעבר שנאמר כי אחרי שובי נחמתי.

But in Perek Beis, the Rambam doesn't mention busha. He has the yisnachem al she'avar corresponding to the nichamti in the Viduy, but he doesn't mention the busha in Perek Beis when he's defining Teshuvah. It's certainly very consistent with the mokor of the Rambam, the posuk in Ezra that we said in Selichos, אלהי בשתי ונכלמתי להרים אלהי פני אליך. So Ezra Hasofer says that in the context of Viduy when he's being misvadeh. So it's certainly very consistent with the posuk, but what's what's the pshat? So maybe the a mashal is as follows. Let's say you have a seventeen-year-old who just recently got his license. So he asks his parents if he can if he can have the car at night. So his parents tell him yes, but on the following conditions: You have to be home by 10:30 PM, you can't have more than one other person in the car with you, and you can't play the radio. So he takes the car out, he packs it with seven friends, and he has the radio blaring, and he's still on the road at 12:30 AM in the morning, and then, no great surprise, he totals the car. He totals the car. So he's obviously very upset, and when does he experience the busha? So he doesn't experience the busha in the immediate aftermath of the the car crash. He experiences the busha when he has to go back and he has to look his parents in in the eye, and he has to acknowledge, and his parents are going to they'll know what time it was, but they're going to ask him, "Were you playing the music?" and "And were there other people in the car with you?" So when he has to come face to face and and fess up, that's when he's going to experience the busha. So apparently the Rambam says the other elements of Teshuvah is sort of the Teshuvah the person is doing bein adam le'atzmo. The the regret, החלפתי עולם עומד בעולם חולף, the regret, that's bein adam le'atzmo. The the acknowledgment also can happen bein adam le'atzmo. But the busha, the Rambam tells us about davka in the context of Viduy because that's when the person is now, in terms of the Teshuvah, that's when he's lifnei HaKel, so that's what engenders the sense of busha.